Hi again. So, as a quick reminder, it had been almost two weeks since I had been told the doctors believed I had cancer. I had begun eating an almost 100% alkaline diet (part of MY plan). I had called the naturopathic cancer doctor and had now scheduled an appointment to go see him (again, part of MY plan). I had scheduled an MRI and CT scan and I had been given a scripture by God to help me understand what was happening and how to stand in His Word and believe in His promises to get through it.
I want to share with you one of the things I did that wasn’t correct. God has since helped me to understand my error, but, for this purpose, I will walk you through what I was thinking and feeling at the time.
One of the other things that I noticed while I was reading Revelations 12 over several times was that there is a time mentioned twice. Both verses 6 and 14 mention a period of time.
6 Then the woman fled into the wilderness, where she has a place prepared by God, that they should feed her there one thousand two hundred and sixty days.
14 But the woman was given two wings of a great eagle, that she might fly into the wilderness to her place, where she is nourished for a time and times and half a time, from the presence of the serpent.
I was intrigued. Was God trying to tell me something in that too? It’s funny how the devil can take what God is saying and totally confuse you. I didn’t understand 1 Corinthians 14:33 at all at this point, but I sure do now! Praise His name. It says:
33 For God is not the author of confusion but of peace…
Anyway, after understanding what God had intended for me to understand in Revelations 12, I decided to go looking for more. Maybe it was because I was high off the rush of hearing so clearly from God and knowing it was Him or simply because I wanted to be right about MY plan, but, whyever I did it, I did it for the wrong reason. (I know whyever is not a real word)
So, this is what I ended up getting distracted by which is definitely a strategy of the devil. He likes to keep our eyes focused on anything but the Lord. I googled what those two periods of time meant. And it led me to Daniel. Apparently those two times were only mentioned one other time in the bible and it was in the book of Daniel. Well, at this point in time my mind says Bingo! There’s the key to MY plan. Daniel was the most healthiest person in the bible. He refused to eat the defiled food of the King and told the King’s chief to test his health. To let Daniel eat his way for 10 days and see if he was better or worse than the rest of the King’s men. Here is the result:
15 And at the end of ten days their features appeared better and fatter in flesh than all the young men who ate the portion of the king’s delicacies. 16 Thus the steward took away their portion of delicacies and the wine that they were to drink, and gave them vegetables.
So, that was it, I took that as confirmation that MY Plan was the best and I would be healed because of it. MY Plan including not only the alkaline eating, but the treatments that the naturopathic doctor recommended. And then as the kicker, I said it was God’s plan. So, I was truly finding security in something other than God, which is in essence Idol Worship, and I was using scripture to back myself up. I wasn’t following an actual instruction from God, I was seeking a way to use scripture to back up MY instructions to myself.
I wanted to share this part with you, which I didn’t even realize I had done until almost a month later, because it shows just how tricky the devil can be. If we do not have a solid grounding in the Lord, it is easy to get led astray into sin. Please hear me. I am NOT saying that eating healthy is bad. In fact, it’s good. WAY BETTER in fact. And I am continuing to eat healthy. But what I am trying to say, is that when we begin to trust in anything other than God to do for us what we are to trust Him to do, we are being led down a rabbit hole. Eating healthy alone will never heal anyone. Only God can do that and I am committed to give all the glory to The Lover of My Soul!!!
If I had have taken the Word and used it to confirm something that goes against scripture, then I would be in deception to myself and distorting the Word of God. As 2 Corinthians 4:2 says:
2 Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God.
So in fact, it is only by trusting in HIM that will bring healing and deliverance to me. As these following scriptures so clearly outline.
Psalm 33:18-22 says:
18 Behold, the eye of the Lord is on those who honour Him,
On those who hope in His mercy,
19 To deliver their soul from death,
And to keep them alive in famine.
20 Our soul waits for the Lord;
He is our help and our shield.
21 For our heart shall rejoice in Him,
Because we have trusted in His holy name.
22 Let Your mercy, O Lord, be upon us,
Just as we hope in You.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says: Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.