At this point in my journey I am totally blown away by God and wrapped up in MY plan. I had visited the naturopathic doctor and his treatment recommendations were that I take Vitamin C intravenously. Mistletoe intravenously. And add two additional supplements to my already long list of vitamins and minerals I take. One being some german supplement I can’t even pronounce that is imported in from Germany and costs over $300 per box. YIKES. To say the least, these “natural” treatments were getting costly. My parents had graciously offered to pay for anything I needed because, of course, they want me to live.
Not only was it going to cost a ton of money per month to maintain MY plan, it was going to take 4 hours twice a week to go and sit at the clinic to have the IV treatments done. It wasn’t until the second week that I actually began to question the wisdom of this plan. I was standing at the naturopath’s office waiting to sit in the chair to have the IV inserted and I began to wonder if all this was necessary. If God had already healed me as scripture said, did I need to do any of this????
I talked to my mom about it, and she said that the money didn’t matter. In fact, she told me that she had been blessed by God financially during the month of October. She made double what she had made the month before. WOW. So, I continued with the treatments for one more week and then Jason and I left for California for American Thanksgiving anyway. That’s when I truly started praying to God asking what His plan was for my healing. It’s about time I asked Him.
And faithful to answering prayer He always is, it didn’t take long before He began to show me all that the devil was attempting to do in my life and all that God would do if I trusted Him. This is where the true fun begins. And the major faith walk. I thought I was walking in faith before, but I wasn’t. As John 10:10 says:
10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
God was showing me that Satan was trying to steal the financial blessing God had given my family. He was trying to kill any hope and faith I had in Him. And He was attempting to destroy my health all at the same time.
I had another dream with dead bees again too. In this dream I was at the doctors office with my mother, Jason and Caleb. She was sharing with me the results of the MRI and CT scans and there was nothing on them other than this one polyp that had already been discovered hanging out of my cervix. Hard to miss really! She told me that surgery for the polyp removal could be scheduled and then gave me a pair of shoes with wings on them. And when we left the appointment I went for a hot tub and all these dead bees were floating in the tub. Hmm?! What did that mean?
I do not have a natural gift of interpreting dreams, and so I asked God, but nothing came to me at this point. So I just ignored it. As can be typical of me, if I don’t get it, pretend it never happened. So, I’m now in California, feeling unsure about MY plan and seeking God. I asked my Pastors from California if we could have another prayer session as so much had come out of the last one, I just knew something would be revealed if I went again. So, that was scheduled and now all that was left was to enjoy Thanksgiving Dinner with Jason’s family.