So, November 27th rolls around, the day I was going to the prayer session with my pastors in California. I’m excited to see what God is going to do can’t wait to hear what He has to say to me. I get to my pastors house and we all sit down. After talking a bit about what has been happening to me, God starts to move. Pastor Dave shares with me that he is sensing deception and confusion surrounding the entire matter and he also shares with me the story of the woman with the issue of blood who spent all her money on doctors and none could make her well. He felt that God wanted me to know this story in particular. For those of you who are familiar with the bible or have been to church regularly, I’m sure you’ve heard of her. For those unfamiliar, here is a quote from Luke 8:43-44:
43 Now a woman, having a flow of blood for twelve years, who had spent all her livelihood on physicians and could not be healed by any, 44 came from behind and touched the border of His garment. And immediately her flow of blood stopped.
Something else that God wanted me to know was that it wasn’t an actual assignment of death that the devil had placed over me as I had suspected earlier, but that it was an assignment to the death of my calling. One thing that they asked of me was if my desire to have kids was unusual or was it the normal desire of all women. I actually told them that I had never really wanted kids. Jason neither. The two of us, prior to finding Christ, had actually planned to just travel around building our network marketing business.
For those of you who have never heard the story of how our beautiful son came to be, here is the Coles Notes version. One day, after I was saved, and Jason was saved a week later, we were in Las Vegas at a Jesus Culture conference and there was a fantastic altar call by Banning Leibscher. He was preaching to the Young Adults and talking about laying down their lives for Him. If God asked them to give up their friends or listening to Eminem or whatever, would they? And so, he said that if anyone here was truly ready to lay their entire lives down for Jesus, come to the altar and he was going to pray. So, Jesus Culture gets up to worship again and I begin praying out loud with my arms raised and my voice loud. Jesus, I love You, I will do anything. Give anything. Be anything. Just say the Word. And as if it was silent in the church and God was audibly speaking to me I heard “Then have a child for me.” I actually shook my fist and said “anything but that Lord”. LOL I then told God that if it was truly Him than He had to tell Jason. And He did. Jason said God spoke to him about the same thing that night. So, of course, being the very careful man he is, , just like Gideon, Jason asked for confirmation from God. Judges 6 36-40 is the story of Gideon asking for not just one sign of confirmation, but TWO….
36 So Gideon said to God, “If You will save Israel by my hand as You have said— 37 look, I shall put a fleece of wool on the threshing floor; if there is dew on the fleece only, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that You will save Israel by my hand, as You have said.” 38 And it was so. When he rose early the next morning and squeezed the fleece together, he wrung the dew out of the fleece, a bowlful of water. 39 Then Gideon said to God, “Do not be angry with me, but let me speak just once more: Let me test, I pray, just once more with the fleece; let it now be dry only on the fleece, but on all the ground let there be dew.” 40 And God did so that night. It was dry on the fleece only, but there was dew on all the ground.
Well, without every single piece of confirmation we received, we got pummeled with confirmation. The last of it being a piece of paper Jason found in his closet back in Canada. We had moved to California at this point and were in the process of selling our house. The piece of paper had been in his closet since the day we moved in which was prior to us finding Jesus. It had one scripture number written on it, nothing else. It was this…
May the Lord give you increase more and more,
You and your children.
Well, we knew that day that God had a big call on our lives to be parents, not just of one child, but of many. So, yes, when pastor Richard asked me if my desire was unusual, I adamantly said YES. I didn’t want children, but God asked me to have the first and then supernaturally changed my heart to now desire many many more. And that is what Richard wanted to confirm because he had been sensing in his spirit that the attack was on our calling. Not my health in particular, although the devil was using that as the point of entry at this moment in time, it was my calling as a mother that the devil wanted to stop.
And so, I left that prayer session feeling even more empowered and armed with a further strategy of prayer, not just for my healing, but for victory and fulfillment of my calling. And, I also had a few more questions for the Lord with respect to the woman with the issue of blood. The answer to those questions He did give and I will share the amazing dream He gave me one night along with the interpretation in my next blog post.